Thursday, June 18, 2009

Update

As you may have noticed, I’ve pretty much disappeared. It’s hard for me to stick my head up and tell you what’s going on, but it’s time I did just that.

The sequel to Shadows of Evil has been rejected by Samhain Publishing. And no, there is no chance of resubmission. I worked with an editor for months in an attempt to produce a manuscript that would fit their needs, but in the end, it just didn’t work out. Please understand, I don’t have any hard feelings against that editor or Samhain. This was a business decision, and I understand.

Of course, this is far from the first rejection I’ve ever received. Yes, this one hurt more than most, but it was just another rejection. And while it was one of the things that contributed to my need to hide in my cave for a while, it wasn’t the only reason.

The truth is that I’ve been facing down some personal demons that I’ve been trying to shove under the carpet for quite a few years. The problem with the shoving under the carpet way of coping is that eventually the demons under there climb out and dance around waving hands and sticking out tongues and laughing at the very idea that you thought you could ignore their existence. To make matters worse, while they were under that carpet, those ugly little demons have grown to enormous proportions. Now you really have a problem on your hands. And that’s the situation I found myself in: facing down huge, ugly, terrifying personal demons. These are things that happened to me when I was very young. Things I barely remember. But things that have affected me on a daily basis for basically my entire life.

What now? Well, I have a fantastic therapist who I believe can help me defeat these overgrown bullies. As far as writing is concerned, I’ve been taking online classes, attending workshops, and reading craft and inspirational books. I’ve done some serious soul searching about what I want from my writing career, and how to get there. And yes, I’ve been looking at potential publishers for the Shadows sequel, because I believe in the book. But I also realize it still needs a lot of work.

I have no idea when I’ll have another book or story out. I am writing, I am working toward the goal of being published again, and I will try to keep you all in the loop. Please be patient as I sort out my life. And if anybody has any personal demon slaying hints and tips to share, feel free to send them my way.

Take care, and may all your demons be tiny ones.